Trigger Warning: Suicidal Thought?

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    It must be cold.?

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    It will be cold.?

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    It was at that moment I took a step back and stared at the endless flow of the black river.?

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    SCRATCH.?

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    And then I heard a strange noise. When I turned around, I saw a sedan gliding in the rain.?

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    ‘That’s a very expensive car.’ I thought, and suddenly the car turned around in a big circle. ?

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    I was completely frozen at the thought of an accident and his eyes followed the back of the car.?

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    The car turned on the spot, ran unsettlingly, and stopped only after crumpling the railing and putting one front wheel on the sidewalk.?

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    The horn shrieked loudly before stopping. Then there was silence.?

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    I trembled and approached because I thought I shouldn’t just stand there. I was limping to put my shoes back on after taking them off.?

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    The car was more expensive than expected upon closer inspection. The engine was overheating, causing smoke, and the windows were heavily tinted, making it impossible to see inside.?

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    “Excuse me, are you okay?”?

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    He knocked on the window, but there was no response.?

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    “Excuse me.”?

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    “…”?

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    “You are not dead, right?”?

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    “…” ?

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    It wasn’t a major accident, but the thought that the driver might injured somewhere caused me to panic. I was in a hurry to find my phone and remembered leaving it at home. It was late at night in the middle of winter, so there were no cars passing by, and after a brief moment of thought, I decided to force open the car door.?

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    I took a step back and gathered my strength to slam the window with all my might.?

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    “Argh…!”?

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    Fortunately, the door opened just at that time.?

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    My shoulder and forearm were sore from slamming into the window so I rubbed them with my other hands, and the driver then comes out of the car.?

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    “Oh, shit… this is driving me crazy.”?

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    The person who came out swearing was a young-looking man. He examined the car’s dented bumper carefully, looking for any damage.?

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    “Damn it, fuck. My brother will kill me.”?

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    ‘Brother?’?

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    While he was tall, he looks to be quite young, and the word “brother” makes me suspicious.?

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    “Ah, I was surprised to see you standing on the Han River bridge in the middle of the night!”?

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    The sudden shouting confirmed my suspicion. While massaging my still-achy shoulder, I asked sarcastically.?

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    “How old are you?”?

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    “I-I’m twenty-five, why?”?

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    “Twenty-five? You’re born in the Year of the Horse, then.”?

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    “Huh, what’s with a horse Year! I got into an accident because of you.”?

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    “Hey, high school student. Did you steal your brother’s car and drive it?”?

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    “W-what, I-I’m not?”?

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    The high school student shook his dripping wet hair. He was a man who could not lie like a child.?

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    “I can see right through you. You can get a license if you wait a month, but you couldn’t help yourself and drove your brother’s car out? You’re a complete moron.”?

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    “Darn it, this is my car! My mom gave it to me as a gift that I’m done with my college entrance.”?

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    “Yeah, right.”?

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    I looked at the car again when I heard the high school student yelling angrily.?

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    It’s brand new, so it’s worth about a billion. I guess it’s a very well-off house to give this kind of car as a gift for the college entrance exam.?

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    “Your car or not, you are unlicensed. You secretly pulled out a decent car and caused an accident. Well, it will be confiscated. Congratulations.”?

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    “It’s because of you! I’m surprised because you’re wearing a dark black outfit on the Han River bridge at this hour, and I’m going to sue you for damages!”?

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    ‘Do you even understand what it means to be compensated for damages?’?

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    I looked pityingly at the pathetic high school student. The high school student began whining and tearing his hair off, which terrified me.?

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    “Oh, I’m going crazy. It’s ruined, damn it. He will kill me.”?

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    It was interesting to see a high school student who spits out curse words in front of a stranger and is terrified of his brother.?

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    I moved my gaze to the front and examined the completely crumpled railing and bumper. There was no other option but to send it in for repair.?

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    “Do you have insurance?”?

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    “I don’t know. How do I know?”?

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    “A few hundreds won would be enough for these.”?

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    In fact, it would be over a thousand, but I cut it short because I thought the high school student would be terrified. The high school student, on the other hand, shakes his head and shows an unexpected reaction.?

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    “It doesn’t matter if it’s hundreds or thousands. My brother gave me the keys and told me to get a license the following year, but if he found out I disobeyed him and caused an accident, he’d kill me! He’ll throw me into the Han River without a second thought. It’s driving me insane.”?

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    ‘It doesn’t matter how many thousands? Are you saying you’re more concerned with being scolded by your brother than with money?’?

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    I scanned him from head to toe without the high school student noticing. I don’t know much about a school brand, but I recognized the logo on the bottom of the shirt. It was a well-known school.?

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    Furthermore, this high school student is an alpha.?

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    I knew he was an Alpha the moment he stepped out of the car. Now, I’ve perfectly captured the pheromone, but I didn’t catch it while he was in the car.?

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    I was worried in vain about this rich high school… I laughed out loud.?

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    “What the fuck are you laughing at?” ?

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    The high school student thought I was laughing at him, so he frowned and became annoyed.?

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    “Nothing, I was curious as to why you crashed to the railing. Why don’t you just hit me?” ?

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    I said it because it was truly such a waste.?

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    I wish that crumpled railing was my body.?

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    Although I said it with sincerity, the high schooling had eyes that listened to all kinds of nonsense.?

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    “Are you crazy? No wonder you were alone on the Han River bridge in the middle of the rainy night; it turns out you’re crazy.”?

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    “Think whatever you want. You don’t seem to be hurt but go to the hospital just in case. I’m leaving.”?

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    “Damn it, where are you going! I had an accident because of you!”?

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    “Stop it there’s  a CCTV here and call your guardian.”?

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    I pointed my chin at the cell phone that was rolling in the passenger seat. The high school student had a world-weary expression. I secretly hoped he’d grab my collar and punch me, but that didn’t happen. Eventually, the high school student returned to his car and picked up his phone.?

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    I looked at the crushed rail and turned around.?

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    Why did I come here? There was a reason why I come to the Han River on a rainy night.?

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    I’m so tired.?

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    I wouldn’t have been able to do it anyway.?

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    I should go home, wash up, and think about whether I want to continue this tedious time or take a different path.?

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    Either way, I have to go back first.?

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    My footsteps naturally slowed down.?

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    I’m sick and tired of everything.?

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    I stopped for a moment and looked up at the rainy sky. Standing in the middle of winter in wet clothes gave me chills.?

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    I‘ll catch a cold if I stay here any longer.?

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    I intended to return quickly, but my feet did not move.?

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    “Hey!”?

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    As I was getting ready to leave, I heard a loud shout from behind me.?

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    “Hey, you! Wait!”?

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    When I turned around, I saw the high schooler approaching me. I waited for him with a questioning expression on my face.?

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    He’s not really asking for compensation, is he??

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    “You.”?

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    The high school student who had come to a close stop took a breath and opened his mouth.?

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    “You, I will give you money, so please help me tell my brother.”