bChapter /b92

The day my mother died, I had lost the luxury to dream about so many things in my life, mainly because I had constantly been worried about how I ear going to survive till the next week and keep Riley well fed. But still, I had dreamt of three of my firsts and how I wanted them to be. My first in my first time and my wedding.

All of them, I wanted to be special. But now, as I wiped away a tear–drop from my cheeks, moaning the loss of my first kiss…I wondered exactly bwhat /bhad

me feeling so betrayed. Was I really just overreacting?

Even if there hadn’t been any date, any choctes, a nice romantic dinner or a bouquet of flowers…the kiss had been incredibly spesial. It bhad /bbthe /bbsparks/b, the fireworks and the butterflies fluttering in my stomach.

Even now, my lips tingled from his touch. I brought my fingers up to trace my lips, to try and imagine how the kiss had felt and how I had survived this long without knowing the taste of Caleb’s lips. It had been mesmerizing…mind blowing. And I wish I could have had more.

But at the same time, it made me angry. Angry that he had stolen my first kiss without my permission. Angry that he…that the kiss probably didn’t bmean /banything to him as it had for me…

I realized with a start that my anger and betrayal had stemmed for apletely different reason.

When Caleb had stormed in, demanding that he couldn’t let me go…it had made my heart flutter wildly, making me believe that maybe, just maybeb, /bhe was ready to fight for a chance that we could be together. Not because we were bonded together by the mating bond, but because he liked meb, /bthat he actually liked me as a person. The kiss was a realization that there bwere /bfireworks between us.

But then I had remembered the mating bond.

Was that why he didn’t want to let me go? I didn’t feel the mating bond because I was human, bso /bI only had my own feelings to rely on when it came to the matters of the heart. And the truth wasb…/bever since Caleb had saved my life…I had started to like him even more.

Finding out that he was my ‘mate‘, that I was chosen for him by the Moon Goddess…it had felt like the blessing I had been waiting for my bentire /blife. bBut /bthen Mia hade and shattered my hopes for good. I was torn between letting him go for good, even if it meant breaking my own heart to pieces; or holding on to the little thread of happiness, hoping that everything would mend itself by the end.

But bying here to stop me, Caleb had given wings to that hope only to crush it once more.

Why hadn’t he just asked permission? And why did it feel like the kiss was only to stop me from leaving? Had it meant anything to him at all? Had he kissed me because he genuinely liked me or had the bond forced him to do so?

Was I…overreacting?

My mind was so overwhelmed by all these thoughts swirling within me that it was starting to hurt. I had to press my hands to my temples to stop the throbbing as I curled up on the carpeted floor, putting myself into a fetal positing.

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I wanted things to be normal in my life for once. I wanted to feel loved and cherished. But most of all…I wanted to know that I mattered to Caleb. bThat /bdespite the mating bond, our connect was real and even if a little bit, he felt the same way about me that I felt about him.

And above all…I wanted him to earn another chance with me….I wanted him to apologize and I wanted him to tell me that what he felt for me was from bthe /bheart and not some god–given bond that was making him feel this way.

Was that too much to ask for?

imed by My Bully Alpha

bChapter /bb93 /b