As a result, even if I went to this school, there was no change.

    No, maybe I''m not going to change from the beginning.

    Good or bad, I am the same as before.

    The reason is very simple.

    Because I know myself well. I know all the advantages and disadvantages.

    I also know that boys and girls don''t like me.

    I know everything clearly, but I''m not going to change.

    But it doesn''t matter.

    Because I don''t feel that pain anymore.

    It''s because I''m looking forward to it.

    I walked out of the shower set up in the guest room, even the water drops on my wet skin, so I stood naked in front of the mirror. How many times have I thought about breaking a mirror?

    Every time I see an old injury to my flank, the horrible past will show its head.

    I felt dizzy and nauseous, so I held up the washstand and vomited.

    Why do I have to go through that?

    Why do I have to suffer like this?

    Why, why, why - I keep repeating that.

    Repeat this meaningless sentence.

    The past cannot be changed.

    No one can change.

    The gods are cruel.

    My personality was destroyed after that nightmare, and I lost my youth, my friends and myself.

    I have to correct that mistake.

    No matter how annoying it is, it''s better than encountering the same situation again.

    I don''t need any youth.

    I don''t need any friends.

    It''s important to protect yourself.

    For this reason, I will do everything necessary.

    I''m a parasite, a weak creature that can''t live on its own.