CHAPTER 464: CHAPTER 386: THE ONLY THING I WANT TO END IS THE PAIN

The logic loop is closed, discharge from the hospital!

"Nie Qiqi has ulterior motives, she’s trying to drive a wedge between us." Jiang Nian began to blow the pillow wind, even though there was no pillow by his side.

Buzz, Li Qingrong replied to the message.

"Delete her?"

"Haha... No need for that." Jiang Nian broke out in a cold sweat; the class monitor is too easily swayed, a bit too indulgent.

Li Qingrong: "Oh."

Jiang Nian started pondering, the class monitor is so easy to deceive. Could it be possible that my future self really dated the monitor with all the romantic troubles looming?

Did it not get recorded in the system because it ended quickly?

Hmm, could it really have happened?

Though he’s unclear about the class monitor’s family background, signs indicate it’s not an ordinary family.

Would a family like that accept an ordinary person?

Class barriers are usually hard to cross.

"What are you doing?" Jiang Nian asked casually, deciding to shelve the issue for now.

Li Qingrong: "(Image)."

Jiang Nian clicked to take a glance, subconsciously saving a screenshot first.

So strange, the photo seems to be of a bathroom.

Not sure, better take another look.

He clicked repeatedly to appreciate it, enlarging the image with both hands to show innocence.

"Are you taking a bath?"

"Hmm."

Jiang Nian’s expression transformed from contemplative to sudden revelation, the monitor wants to lure him, but unfortunately, he is a gentleman who avoids women.

"Then continue your shower first."

Responding with high emotional intelligence, warming her heart all day.

Li Qingrong: "Hmm."

After receiving such a reply, Jiang Nian also began to relax and work on the test paper. No matter what, he currently had the upper hand.

If he really dated the monitor, he certainly wouldn’t let the "suicide note" tragedy repeat.

Even if it happened, it would probably involve him being under heavy attack.

[Nian, please check if the water is boiling in the kitchen?]

If he was really dealt with by some insane girl, he shouldn’t be too mournful; first see if there’s an ad that allows revival.

Swipe, suddenly, ten minutes later.

Li Qingrong’s video call request popped up. But Jiang Nian had a soft heart and couldn’t bear to see someone "requesting".

Beep, the video connected.

The anticipated scene did not happen; instead, it was an empty shot of the ceiling.

After a while.

The freshly bathed Li Qingrong, her face tinted pink by hot water. Her brows and eyes clear, looking at the camera with curiosity.

While Jiang Nian, deliberately turned on the rear camera.

The monitor saw on the other end... under the desk lamp, a pair of hands resting on the table doing the test paper, quite the "senior year" scene.

However, the next second.

"Choose B."

"Hmm?" Jiang Nian’s gaze shifted downwards; there were only questions 10-12 on the test paper, and he had just completed question 11.

"No, for sure, question 10 should be C, and question 11 should be A, right?"

Li Qingrong: "I meant question 12."

Question 12, he hadn’t written it yet. But the monitor just took a few glances and selected the answer in four or five seconds.

This is truly a top student.

Jiang Nian felt heavily oppressed by the monitor’s sudden display of superiority.

No, I’m supposed to be masculine!

The monitor was a bit naive, not afraid of triggering his defenses at all. He remained motionless, no benefits, then delete as a friend.

"Alright, I believe you."

The two chatted for a while, gradually running out of things to say. Mainly because the monitor doesn’t like talking and has a habit of leaving the video on while sleeping.

Jiang Nian finished the chemistry test paper; it was already midnight.

Looking up, he noticed the monitor tucking herself in.

Li Qingrong’s room light was always on, seemingly without the intention to turn it off; she wrapped herself tightly with a quilt.

The phone seemed to be fixed in place, aimed squarely at her face. Even at such an odd angle, the monitor’s appearance was still unbeatable.

A cold, expressionless face, even somewhat cute.

"Are you sleepy?" Jiang Nian was curious.

"No." Li Qingrong’s eyelids lowered, her voice weak, "Video... can you hang up after I fall asleep?"

Upon hearing this, Jiang Nian immediately stood up.

It’s not Xingyu.

Even though the monitor’s sleepy voice had a bit of a mature edge, it hasn’t reached the point of summoning a hero’s sword.

It’s over, over.

No, I’m enamored.

Not just hanging up after you sleep, I’d even take a million dollars for doing so while you sleep.

"Sure, but the video will automatically hang up if no one talks for too long." Jiang Nian provided a disclaimer first.

"Mm." Li Qingrong murmured in her sleep talk.

Her eyes were slowly closing, transforming into a sleeping ice beauty. At least when asleep, her expression remained quite cold.

This four-kidney man, Jiang Nian, decided to continue writing the test paper. After solving a few questions, he subconsciously glanced at the screen.

Oh... a message from Chen Yunyun.

Eyes forward.

Chen Yunyun: "Asleep?"

Jiang Nian: "Who?"

Chen Yunyun: "...How are you like Seren?"

"(Puzzled) Huh?" Jiang Nian slowly typed, explaining, "I thought you were asking if my girlfriend was asleep."

"Who’s your girlfriend?" Chen Yunyun sent several question marks.

"No girlfriend, that’s why I asked you who?" Jiang Nian replied, "Yunyun, you’re being a bit dirty."

Chen Yunyun: "...."

Jiang Nian laid down a move, leaving Chen Yunyun speechless. She took a while to type before finally sending a message.

"Need me to bring you water tomorrow afternoon?"

Afternoon?

Oh... it’s a holiday tomorrow afternoon and he needs to arrive at the sports ground with team members for exhausting practice.

A typical Chinese school, on weekends not even a ghost to be seen.

Not to mention playing football, with on-site commentary from boys, offering some awkward reviews. Girls watching and cheering, screaming and fainting.

Bringing water, can really put on a show in front of a few teammates.

"Aren’t you going out to play with the holiday tomorrow?" Before sending the message, Jiang Nian carefully checked the video call screen.

The monitor was fast asleep, quite safe.

Typing, it wouldn’t make any sound. Someone might ask, bro, how are you so skillful at stealth romance?

Lol, taught by a master.

Qingbao taught me.

Better off asking Green Hat Yu if he’s asleep now? You’re the leaf in the sun, and I’m the root in the dark.

You green, I black.

Woosh, Chen Yunyun replied.

"(Awkward) I don’t usually leave the school during breaks, anyway if I’m idle in the dorm, might as well watch you guys play soccer."

Yunyun, a bit sly there, ah.

Jiang Nian replied, "Alright, you can come then."

"(Sticking tongue out) Alright." Chen Yunyun sent several cute emojis, "(Awkward) What do you want to drink?"

"Anything’s fine." Jiang Nian was quite straightforward.

"Do you like eating grapes?" Chen Yunyun asked, "I could also bring a box of small fruits, exclusive supply."

"Better not, I’m afraid of getting beaten to death."

Jiang Nian and Chen Yunyun chatted a bit more, ending the conversation after saying goodnight, though he didn’t actually sleep.

At 2 AM.

He finished a chemistry test paper, following Qingbao’s advice. Highlighted some key points with a red pen.

After doing it carefully a few times, he finally put down his pen.

The phone still showed an ongoing video call, the monitor still sound asleep. She turned slightly, her quilt rising gently.

With some spare time, he didn’t hurry to bed. Instead, he lay on the desk, quietly observing the monitor’s sleeping face.

Someone this beautiful shouldn’t be hurt.

Jiang Nian picked up the suicide note pressed at the corner of the table, gently stroking it with his fingertip. After pondering, he felt it was necessary.

Simultaneously, he must also ensure Li Qingrong avoids a tragic fate.

Of course, numerous obstacles might lie in between. Even the prejudices he encountered might be greater than those from Zhizhi’s side.

But... it’s okay.

Effort must be made, and hope can eventually be seen. Prejudice is a mountain, but wasn’t a mountain meant to be climbed?

At thirty, he might conform and compromise.

But now, he’s only eighteen, he shouldn’t... nor has he hit rock bottom to bow to all worldly matters, even if he is Don Quixote.

But so what?

The path lies there, whether to walk it or not lies in one’s choice. While the monitor might speak little, Jiang Nian still thought she doesn’t want to die.

Clearly, no one truly wishes to end their life.

What they want to end is only the pain.

Thinking of this, Jiang Nian put the suicide note in the drawer. Then silently locked it, took a deep breath after switching off the light, and climbed into bed.

At night, he vaguely heard a voice.