I created my own system
Chapter 197 Just a reader
First day of the eighth month, Agustus
After so many days that I was alone finally there was someone who tried to help me.No?v(el)B\\jnn
Her name is Athena, the only daughter of the dual family of Lionheart. It seems our sudden meet-up brought a sudden closeness I never expected. For a brief time, I felt like someone cared. She promised to help me, and she even got Prince Titus involved. I felt a glimmer of hope in that moment. The prince welcomed me to his club providing protection I never expected to have.
The club members also told me not to go too far and always go to the places they have marked. And gladly I agreed to them.
It turns out my sister helped her, why?
Was she always this kind? Then why...why I have never....
No stop, don''t think that way, you can''t be distracted. What you should think of is the location where she hid the footage, that''s the point of this.
[Relax Creator, your emotion is shaking my entire existence]
"I am sorry"
[It''s okay, should I scan the diary instead so you don''t need to read it?]
"No it''s okay, I want to know everything. Every pain and happiness of her. I want to read it all"
So I calmed my heart and yet again I read the next entry she wrote.
Twenty-Six day of the eighth month, Agustus
Prince Titus decided to make a move and wanted the imperial finally involved. I suddenly got scared but he told me it had to be done to change things.
Then he told me to gather up the evidence we needed to set the academy upside down however he was suddenly called for a mission. I felt it was suspicious but Titus told me not to overthink and just prepare everything so we can continue once he returns.
I did what he asked but the feeling of danger persisted inside my heart. Suddenly I thought of her, so without hesitation, I went to her side. Fortunately, she was there in the garden where we first met. Ever since we became friends we would always meet here. We didn''t know why but the calmness those roses gave was enough for us to be happy.
At that moment I suddenly wish our time together would last more.
Hah? Titus? If they were really friends he would have been there when the mass happened. He and the rest of his members would be there to pray for her, however, I never even felt a single shred of energy from anyone from the Clover club, not a single one.
I think the main reason Titus extended a helping hand was because of the benefit he could get from having the imperial family involved.
One of the previous emperors once made an oath not to interfere too much in the academy''s affairs. That resulted in the empire''s grip on the academy lessening, and for years the following emperor has been trying to return the imperial family''s absolute control of the said place.
If Titus can use the corruption that has been going on at Aster he can use one of the conditions of the oath to allow the empire''s forces to interfere.
Tenth day of the Ninth month, September
I am tired, so tired, you know I just realized maybe Titus just wants to use me. He probably saw my case as the shining opportunity that would make the imperial family grab the Academy just as they always wanted. The members of the club may also be the same. Why did I think we could be friends when they were the very same people who instigated my suffering?
Was I so lonely that I sought their attention just to receive some form of comfort?
I can''t believe it.
The pain is constant and suffocating. I feel like I''m a burden to everyone around me, even though they don''t see it.
I just want to sleep because I don''t want to feel this way again.
My hand began to shake, I couldn''t believe I was empathizing with someone over a cluster of words, she was a person I never met and her story shouldn''t affect me.
A deep sigh escapes from me while I flip another page. As I tried to regain my focus the very first thing I read was this passage.
If anyone reads this, please know that I tried. I tried to stay strong, but I couldn''t. I''m sorry for all the times I felt like a disappointment, but I just couldn''t bear it anymore.
Due to my already unstable emotional state, I couldn''t help but close the diary.
"It''s strange how the death of someone I don''t know can hurt this much. I know it was just mere words, but the way her life and emotions were described made me feel her loss was was mine to"
It''s painful to realize that I can''t do anything to change it or bring her back. The only option I have is to close the diary and move on.
[This must be a reminder of how deeply stories can affect us and how powerful our connection to them can be, even when we''re powerless to alter their outcome.
You know how her story will end yet you still wish for her to live well. That speaks volumes about how your character developed, Creator. At first, you only care about the people of the tower while being cold to others, but now you know how to feel sympathy and even understand people''s feelings. You have truly grown]
"Hearing those words suddenly made me regret sharing my memories with you"
[Didn''t you tell me you want to form a firm connection with me?]
"Right, why don''t we test that connection what do you think I am feeling right now?"
[Vengeful]
An evil smile painted across my face while the diary disappeared and went inside my inventory.
"Now then let''s find that fucking bastard"
I said while lightning began to dance across my body.