Chapter 280: Chapter 280: I’m Sorry for Making You Feel So Bad

“I’m sorry for the trouble,” Xu Jinzhi said politely.

After the doctor left, Xu Jinzhi helped Xie Yanchuan to walk out step by step.

Xu Jinzhi walked very slowly, mainly because she was worried about going too fast for Xie Yanchuan to keep up. A fall would be dreadful, so she was extra cautious.

As Xie Yanchuan paced slowly, he glanced at Xu Jinzhi by his side and suddenly felt a pang of discomfort in his heart.

He had been awake for three days now, and everyone was happy about his awakening, including Xu Jinzhi.

But beyond the happiness, Xie Yanchuan distinctly felt some inexplicable distance between himself and Xu Jinzhi.

They were not as close as before; Xu Jinzhi no longer had that playful manner she used to have around him, nor would she act petulant with him anymore.

Though he knew all of this was because of his accident, and giving each other some time might make things better, this still made Xie Yanchuan difficult to accept.

After walking a while, Xie Yanchuan called out uncontrollably, “Jinzhi.”

“Hmm?” Xu Jinzhi turned to look at Xie Yanchuan with a hint of confusion in her eyes, as if asking what was wrong.

Before Xie Yanchuan could speak, Xu Jinzhi asked with some concern, “Are you feeling unwell?”

Xie Yanchuan had not been active for a long time and his body could not endure prolonged activity. He had been persisting through gritted teeth during his rehabilitation.

“No,” Xie Yanchuan shook his head and continued to gaze at Xu Jinzhi, “I just wanted to talk to you.”

In the past few days, Xu Jinzhi had also been receiving IV drips due to a gastric bleed, while he was undergoing various examinations and visits from friends and relatives.

In short, with everything mixed together, he and Xu Jinzhi had not yet had a proper conversation until now.

Of course, part of this was also because Xu Jinzhi deliberately avoided the issue; she seemed unwilling to bring up that incident again.

Xie Yanchuan felt this couldn’t go on.

Xu Jinzhi was somewhat silent; she knew it was wrong to continue like this; they couldn’t go on this way.

Especially when looking into Xie Yanchuan’s eyes as he watched her, the pitiful expression on his face as if she had bullied him, made Xu Jinzhi feel somewhat suffocated.

After a moment, Xu Jinzhi said bluntly, “Let’s talk back in the ward.”

They certainly couldn’t just stand in the corridor talking, and Xie Yanchuan couldn’t keep standing there.

Seeing a trace of irritation on Xu Jinzhi’s face, Xie Yanchuan felt somewhat relieved and, with a slight smile, said gently, “Okay.”

Back in the ward, Xu Jinzhi had Xie Yanchuan sit on the couch and brought over some warm water. She handed him a cup and held one herself.

The rehabilitation was over and all necessary checks had been completed. They didn’t have other matters to attend to and there was no one else in the room – it was a good opportunity for them to talk.

After Xie Yanchuan had some water, he couldn’t help but speak up, “Jinzhi.”

“Mhm.” Xu Jinzhi responded and then fell silent, looking at Xie Yanchuan, waiting for him to continue.

However, Xie Yanchuan’s first words were, “I’m sorry.”

Xu Jinzhi felt as if her heart was being repeatedly pricked by a needle, a fine and dense pain spreading bit by bit.

Sorry, huh?

He went to die for her, yet he still had to say sorry to her.

She really was too much.

Xu Jinzhi took a deep breath and said with feigned calmness, “It was you who suffered everything, I owe you, there’s no need for you to say sorry.”

“It’s not like that!” Xie Yanchuan hurriedly shook his head, his expression very serious, “You don’t owe me anything!”

He had never felt that Xu Jinzhi owed him.

“I say sorry only because I wanted you to live, but I made you suffer so much, I didn’t want that.”

“I don’t even know if what I did was right or wrong; that pain, I brought it all to you.”

Xie Yanchuan’s eyes reddened, he felt nothing was more important than being alive, he even dreamt about how Xu Jinzhi lived after he died in his previous life.

So, at that time, he made his choice firmly, knowing that Xu Jinzhi would certainly be sad for a while, but time would heal everything.

He thought it would be the same this time, that Xu Jinzhi would always live well.

He didn’t expect Xu Jinzhi to collapse like that, seeing her in such pain, his heart was equally tormented.

“Sorry, for making you suffer so much.”

Xu Jinzhi didn’t speak, although she had repeatedly told herself that nothing was more important than Xie Yanchuan waking up, deep down, there was still a thorn in her heart.

Now, hearing Xie Yanchuan say these words, Xu Jinzhi only wanted to cry, all her emotions entangled, she couldn’t even explain them herself.

Xie Yanchuan reached out with some difficulty, trying to embrace Xu Jinzhi.

Even before Xie Yanchuan’s accident, if Xu Jinzhi didn’t want Xie Yanchuan to hug her, he couldn’t get close to Xu Jinzhi, let alone now.

So, when Xie Yanchuan easily held Xu Jinzhi in his arms, he knew that Xu Jinzhi had never really felt any distance from him.

Xie Yanchuan held Xu Jinzhi and said hoarsely, “Jinzhi, you want me to live well, and I want you to live well too.”

“We are the closest people in this world to each other, no one owes anyone between us, everything is because of love.”

“Jinzhi, everything is in the past now, from today onwards, we will happily spend the rest of our lives together.”

His soul had struggled to return to his body, he had woken up again, Xie Yanchuan knew their tribulations were over.

From now on, they would accompany each other well.

“Jinzhi, will you forgive me this time?” Xie Yanchuan still remembered when he was in a coma, Xu Jinzhi had said she would never forgive him for this.

Although Xu Jinzhi hadn’t repeated those words now, Xie Yanchuan knew in his heart Xu Jinzhi’s reservations.

If it all happened again, he might still do the same thing.

But things had progressed to this point, and he had now woken up, so why repeat such cruel words again? Xie Yanchuan was willing to apologize, willing to ask for Xu Jinzhi’s forgiveness.

And Xu Jinzhi knew all too well that Xie Yanchuan’s words now were just to soothe her, but things were as they were, there really was nothing to fuss over anymore.

After all, the most important thing was that Xie Yanchuan had woken up.

Yet Xu Jinzhi still grabbed Xie Yanchuan’s collar, tilted her head up to look at the man very seriously, and said, “Xie Yanchuan, this is the only time.”

He could only deceive her and keep things from her this time.

“Okay,” Xie Yanchuan agreed in a deep voice.

The two looked at each other for a moment, Xie Yanchuan smiled gently, and leaned down to kiss Xu Jinzhi.