CHAPTER 60: CHAPTER 22 MO YING’S DILEMMA_3

But whether at Bai Zhan’s coming-of-age ceremony or his engagement party, even though Mo Ying truly impressed Bai Zhan, she was still unable to become the girl standing shoulder to shoulder with him, unable to stand in the center of the dance floor and dance gracefully with him.

Bai Zhan’s fiancée was beautiful and good; Mo Ying acknowledged that she couldn’t surpass her and thus hid her youthful admiration that hadn’t yet been revealed. Resolutely, she cut her long hair and entered the Military Department, becoming what people hailed as the "female hero."

But the year when Mo Ying’s spiritual power malfunctioned and she was forced to retire from the battlefield, Bai Zhan’s fiancée was also killed by a Star Thief, leaving this world at a young age.

Those alive are forever overshadowed by those who have died. Mo Ying’s long-hidden admiration was accidentally discovered by Bai Zhan, but how could Mo Ying ever compare to that untouchable white moonlight?

Bai Zhan began to avoid Mo Ying as if pretending that nothing had ever happened could make it so, yet Mo Feng and Bai Zhan remained close, and Bai Zhan would occasionally visit the Mo Family and sometimes see Mo Ying.

Mo Ying always felt that she’d let go, but what is unattainable constantly flashes before her eyes. This morning, she saw Bai Zhan again, who was visiting Mo Feng at the Mo Family, and the long-missed feeling of heart flutter returned.

Bai Zhan smiled at Mo Ying as usual, yet after Mo Ying returned the smile and nodded, he brushed past her, as though the smile was just an illusion, blown away by the wind.

Mo Ying, who had kept her feelings hidden for many years, now felt envy and heartache seeing Du Xixi so blissful under Ke Lian’s care.

She wasn’t jealous of Du Xixi because Du Xixi was so good; Ke Lian being good to her was only right. But she envied Du Xixi for being able to love a man deeply, to have children with him, to live a happy life together.

After listening, Du Xixi’s heart was also complex. Though she had some impression of Bai Zhan, it wasn’t deep. He always seemed to smile, yet showed hints of gloom and sorrow, as if reminiscing about something. But since Du Xixi wasn’t familiar with him, she hadn’t asked before.

However, Ke Lian had mentioned once, the reason Bai Zhan’s nickname is Black Face seems to be because he was initially forced by his family to get engaged to a woman he disliked, hence he always met people with a dark face?

According to Mo Ying’s description, Bai Zhan seemed to have had a good relationship with his fiancée, but Ke Lian also said Bai Zhan never had feelings for his fiancée who died young, and even felt relieved after her death.

Du Xixi wouldn’t doubt Mo Ying, nor would she doubt Ke Lian. Her instincts told her there must be some misunderstanding which made Mo Ying think Bai Zhan couldn’t forget his fiancée.

Even though Du Xixi was guessing internally, she didn’t dare to rashly speak to Mo Ying. She knew that a secret love is a complex emotion; wanting to love but being afraid to, wanting to approach yet hesitating, all because of the fear that the other person might not like you.

Despite never experiencing it, Du Xixi could understand Mo Ying and thought for a moment, then comforted her: "Why single-mindedly yearn for a Black Face when there are so many lovely flowers in the world? When I meet someone suitable in the future, I’ll introduce you right away."

Du Xixi wasn’t just speaking casually. Though she knew Bai Zhan had no affection for his fiancée, it was also true that he showed no interest in Mo Ying; it seemed Bai Zhan really never had other thoughts about Mo Ying.

If there’s nothing, why be hung up on Bai Zhan? Du Xixi felt it was better to advise Mo Ying to look around at other good men in the Star Era.

Thinking of this, Du Xixi took a closer look at Mo Ying, surprisingly realizing: "I just now noticed, Sister Mo Ying, how beautiful your features are. If you dress up nicely, many people would surely like you!"

Mo Ying had always dressed like a tomboy. Even when wearing a vibrant red color, she exuded more of a "tomboy vibe." Thus, Du Xixi had never carefully observed Mo Ying’s facial features, only now realizing Mo Ying was actually a great beauty.

What a pity, though. If Mo Ying had long hair, it might enhance her temperament. Short hair suited her personality but not her aura.

Mo Ying knew Du Xixi was concerned about her and didn’t take her comfort to heart, instead just humoring her, pinching Du Xixi’s cheek and echoing: "Yes, yes, your Sister Mo Ying is indeed a natural beauty. If I dress up, I’ll definitely charm a bunch of handsome guys!"

Though speaking boldly, Mo Ying felt no true confidence inside; she had lived roughly for many years. The youthful, shining self she once remembered had faded through years of battlefield trials.

"Don’t doubt it, let me dress you up!" Du Xixi immediately recognized Mo Ying was trying to entertain her and thus dragged Mo Ying towards the closet, pulling out a dress that wasn’t quite suitable for herself but fitted Mo Ying perfectly.

This was a dress Du Xixi specifically picked for Mo Ying while shopping. It wasn’t just for Mo Ying; Ke Xing had one too, although it was a set of precious tea accessories for him. After all, Ke Xing cared more about tea than clothing.

Du Xixi originally intended for someone to send it to the Mo Family but felt delivering it herself gave more satisfaction. Unfortunately, Ke Lian had temporarily forbidden her from going out casually, fearing danger, so the dress was delayed until now to meet Mo Ying.