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    ~~ A Few months ago~~

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    Ewrites: Ask him. I am not afraid if I will lose interest in him or I will get bored of him or if I am not serious about him, what I am afraid of is, what if this was the case with him?

    Loon: I will ask him then. Ok?

    Ewrites: Hmm sure.

    Loon: Oye Kiddo get your ass here

    Rwalker: what the-

    Loon: Just want to ask you

    Rwalker: What is that now-?

    Loon: E

    Rwalker: You mean Erie?

    Loon: yes her.

    Rwalker: What about her?

    Loon: You serious about her?

    Rwalker: Ugh what do you really mean by that?

    Loon: You like her? Or what? Just asking.

    I know you like her.

    Rwalker: Ah then why ask me?

    Loon: I want to ask...

    Rwalker: just get to the point Loon

    Loon: are you sure you like her? Or just playing with her? And then let her go off living your own life and not giving a shit about her?

    Rwalker: Loon

    This is the first and the last warning.

    Loon: You warning me kiddo? [Laughing face]

    Rwalker: if you even said some shit like that about me being serious about Erie. I will find you and kill you for sure

    Loon: What?

    Rwalker: Of course, sure as hell that I am not going to do something like that to her

    Loon: Eh~

    Rwalker: I am serious

    I am not playing, I am not sure about her thoughts….

    Loon: really?

    Rwalker: You want to die?

    Loon: you can''t kill me

    Rwalker: then get this. I am not gonna let her go, I don''t care about her religion too, I AM DEAD SERiOUS ABOUT ERii.

    Loon: [Eyes emoji] you mean that Rw?

    My nickname there was Rw, short-form lol.

    Rwalker: yeah I do for sure no doubt and don''t ask that again

    it is embarrassing

    Loon: Oh yeah it is, more it is cringing [Laughing face]

    Rwalker: anything more to ask?

    Loon: nay that is all.

    Rwalker: thanks then. I am not going to ask why asked me that, you not gonna answer anyway.

    Loon: yes…

    Rwalker: See ya

    Loon: BYE~

    Then I went, took quick screenshots of these texts, and sent them to her quickly.

    Now many of you might be thinking I am a jerk to do all this shit, to fool her, to trick her into this making her believe that Loon was another person. But you know what? I didn''t felt guilty or bad at all that time. To me, it was just me trying to get a girl interested in me and make her love me the way I do. I saw nothing wrong with that. instead, I was happy.

    Her reply to those screenshots was:

    Ewrites: I am gonna die!

    Dead.

    Loon: haha what happened?

    Ewrites: damn…

    She was embarrassed to say anything, on the other end I was trying my best not to grin in front of my mother and father.

    Ewrites: If he can sound this sweet then he better ask me out now.

    Damn this made me happy as fuck.

    Then as Loon, I continued talking with her.

    As I was still not sure about her feelings, I asked her what she felt about me as Loon.

    Loon: you up for him if there is not any religious matter? (Just asking)

    Ewrites: I''d say yes

    Loon: hmm Yes you say. May I know the reason? (if it is allowed to)

    Ewrites: IDK why my stupid ass has a soft side for him--- please don''t ask, it''s embarrassing.

    ''Hmm, soft side she says, maybe it is pity? That she will pity me if she didn''t love me back? Dunno.''

    Loon: how you fell for him?

    Ewrites: dunno, he did some voodoo tricks on me I guess….

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    Loon: So you are in an argument huh? I suggest that you flirt with him.

    Ewrites: I did try that but he….

    Loon: well then did he flirted back?

    Ewrites: ….flirt back, I don''t remember him ever doing that thought... He just adds a bunch of ''...''s

    That was true. I mean I was embarrassed, I had zero experience.

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    Ewrites: wait- I had never flirt. I am bad at those

    Loon: Hmm why?

    Ewrites: very bad at those

    Loon: O bad. But I saw you both flirting over in the group chat many times.

    Ewrites: You think I''ve dated before? [Laughing tears face]

    Ewrites: He was once talking about the famous ''her'' we all know

    Loon: yeah ''her'' and I will kick you if you say you don''t know who that ''her'' is

    Ewrites: And he just went- ''I would not tell it to her through texts. it is better said in real life.''

    And yeah when I did said this. I knew she knew who she was, more like I wanted her to take the hint that this ''her'' is no one but Erin herself. But to this, her reply was ''Oh okay.'' the fuck?

    Loon: Lmao [Funny face] he is really mad in love, so what he gonna meet you and tell you? Lmao. really dumb kid. [Cat laughing face]

    Ewrites: Yeh guesses so…. Too dumb.

    Loon: you know her right? ''Her''

    Ewrites: She''s one heck of a dumbass. See? She''s staring at me through the mirror

    Loon: yeah named Ewrites. So lucky to have someone who likes you so bad and gets angry when ppl ask him shit as I did before. And you even know that he likes you. Miracle.

    Ewrites: But I wonder what he even saw in me he knows I''m anemic and have health issues. He knows very well how stubborn I am. He knows my father and two elder brothers would kick him if they get to know him. And idiot still likes me?

    Well to tell you guys the truth. I liked her because I thought it was possible for us to get together. I wanted my first girlfriend to be my last girlfriend. In other words. I wanted to marry my first girlfriend. So when I came to know she is fourteen and is American too I saw a possibility of both of us together, then I came to know about her religion and shit but still, I didn''t give up.

    On the other hand, we used to talk for hours with each other. I don''t really want to bring up the cringe and flirty texts of us. But yeah we did talk and called each other a lot. Eventually, her elder sister also came to know about me. She used to tease Erin saying she should date me which thrilled me and made me happy. That was a lot of fun. Maybe the best days of my life I guess?

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    End of the flashback.

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    "Fuck my life. I want to die." Tears started rolling down Ryan''s eyes.. They were not tears of happiness, but sadness and depression.