"Cui Que!"

She suddenly exclaimed, "I, I actually have a more negative, or rather, cowardly thought! I feel like I have to say it!"@@novelbin@@

"Before I knew the true cause of my mother's death, I could still look at the dangers faced by magical girls with a calm mind. But ever since I found out the truth, I started feeling conflicted!"

"I can't explain whether it's hatred or fear, I don't even know which emotion is stronger. But I know that I despise my own thoughts."

Upon hearing her words, Cui Que didn't directly comment, but instead asked, "Why? Because of your mother?"

"...These past few days, I've been thinking about these things and I've started to feel that knowing the truth isn't actually a good thing."

Lin Xiaolu replied with a complex expression, "Just knowing that magical girls face the risk of death and actually knowing that a magical girl I know has died are completely different feelings."

"It's strange, isn't it? Even though I've been a magical girl for so long, it's only these past few days that I've started feeling scared. And instead of feelings like 'revenge,' I have more thoughts of 'retreating' and 'escaping.' Because I wonder, if one day I encounter the enemy who killed my mother, will I die like my mother?"

"I have thoughts of 'revenge,' but I'm afraid of the act of 'revenge' itself. I even want to avoid it and continue pretending not to know."

"But if I do that, am I still worthy of my mother? What is the meaning of obtaining this power? Just thinking about these things, even my conviction to continue fighting starts to waver."

"Doesn't it sound ridiculous? Even though I've always wanted to know the truth about my mother's death, I started regretting it after finding out. My heart is filled with negative emotions: fear, guilt, self-denial... It makes me feel like it would have been better not to know."

"I, after all, am a very pathetic person. I told you before that I wanted to become stronger and be your support, but because I learned a little bit more about this, I started wavering and feeling scared."

"Even Xia Liang also learned about this, but she has already reached the Bud Stage so quickly, while I'm still..."

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