CHAPTER 193: CHAPTER 193 ORIGINAL SIN 2

Yun Shuangshuang had no idea that her mother, Feng Jinyan, was actually the daughter of a wealthy family. Feng Jinyan’s parents were chairpersons of a major company in H City, and Feng Jinyan had been married and had given birth to a daughter. However, after her daughter was born, Feng Jinyan suffered from postnatal depression.

Although Feng Jinyan’s parents sought numerous doctors to treat their daughter, her postnatal depression worsened, and she started to exhibit manic behavior. Eventually, while her husband took her out to the mountains for a trip, Feng Jinyan went missing!

Feng Jinyan’s husband and parents searched everywhere for her, but unexpectedly, Feng Jinyan was taken in by Shuangshuang’s father to become his wife, and later Shuangshuang was born.

When Feng Jinyan’s parents saw Yun Shuangshuang, they could not conceal their disdain. The elderly couple harbored extreme resentment toward Father Yun for taking their daughter away, and although Feng Jinyan repeatedly spoke of Shuangshuang’s filial piety toward her, they disliked the child born during their daughter’s madness and did not allow Shuangshuang to call them grandparents at all.

Yun Shuangshuang was bewildered. She didn’t want to leave her mother, but her mother had a husband who waited for her lovingly without remarrying, and her mother already had a daughter — elegant, noble, like a princess.

As for herself, she had never been to school. She learned to read only by buying children’s and elementary school textbooks, begging people around her to teach her, gradually learning bit by bit.

She didn’t understand etiquette, didn’t know how to act nobly. The social finesse she learned from doing business seemed useless here. No one in this family liked her or welcomed her. Everyone looked at her as if she were dirt.

Yun Shuangshuang suffered discrimination and silent treatment in this house. She dared not show it, lest her mother, who was immersed in the joy of family reunion, would notice, because she had overheard her grandparents saying behind her back that she was born with original sin and should never have been born!

What is original sin? What does it mean? Yun Shuangshuang did not understand. She just wanted to be with her mother, to live happily and joyfully!

But Yun Shuangshuang realized that her existence was causing her mother unhappiness because her mother’s previous daughter hated and targeted her, while Feng Jinyan felt guilt toward this daughter who had not been by her side since childhood.

At the same time, Feng Jinyan also felt guilty toward her obedient younger daughter, Yun Shuangshuang, who helped her escape the Demon Cave. So every time the elder daughter targeted the younger daughter, she felt heartbroken for Shuangshuang. However, she could not reproach the elder daughter, which left Feng Jinyan always in a state of difficult decision and sorrow.

Yun Shuangshuang couldn’t bear to see her mother in such a predicament, and since she was already in her twenties, she reluctantly moved out, using the excuse of wanting to start a business. Of course, this excuse was just to ease Feng Jinyan’s sadness and grief over her departure. Others did not care about her leaving; in fact, without Yun Shuangshuang, they felt more comfortable and relieved.

After Yun Shuangshuang left, Feng Jinyan, worried about her younger daughter, would often visit her. These were the happiest days for Yun Shuangshuang, spending time with her mother, whose mind was clear as they chatted and traveled together, truly happy.

However, soon, Feng Jinyan’s elder daughter became resentful again, targeting Yun Shuangshuang on every occasion but choosing moments when Feng Jinyan was not around to confront Yun Shuangshuang! Yun Shuangshuang couldn’t understand why, no matter how she tried to avoid it, she couldn’t escape the woman’s aggressive behavior!

In fact, Yun Shuangshuang knew that as long as she did not get close to her mother, she could avoid the woman’s targeting. But she was unwilling; that was her mother too. She couldn’t bear to give up, nor did she have any reason to.

But the woman’s words were truly hurtful, always targeting her wounds, until one time, dazed by the woman’s words, she and the rushing Feng Jinyan were hit by a car!

It was not until her death that Yun Shuangshuang realized her mother’s feelings for her were as deep as hers for her mother. It was laughable to suffer for outsiders’ words. What she should have done was enhance herself, become outstanding enough to be stronger than those who looked down on her and called her sinful, and then live happily, ignoring these people; that was the most correct approach.

Filled with resentful energy, Yun Shuangshuang was pulled into a space full of red flowers, where she made a transaction with a woman dressed in gorgeous ancient clothing, who gave her a sense of intimacy yet strangeness, exchanging her faith for a chance to be reborn.

At that time, Yun Shuangshuang didn’t have much thought, nor did she know if it was real, but as long as there was a glimmer of hope, she didn’t want to give up, so she agreed.

Now, seeing her mother clearly and truly standing in front of her, Yun Shuangshuang was grateful to someone for the first time! She secretly vowed in her heart that from now on, the immortal who sent her reborn would be her entire faith.

"Shuangshuang, don’t cry, Shuangshuang, don’t cry!"

Yun Shuangshuang’s arrival quickly caught the attention of Feng Jinyan inside the room. Although she was mad, she always remembered her daughter. Seeing Yun Shuangshuang silently crying outside the door, Feng Jinyan became anxious. Yet, locked inside, not having eaten properly for days, she lacked even the strength to bang on the door, only able to awkwardly mumble simple comforting words through the door panel.

Yun Shuangshuang wiped the tears from her face and gave Feng Jinyan a broad smile. She didn’t cry; there was nothing to cry about. She should be happy; she had been reborn. This time, she would do better, take good care of her mother, and then make herself outstanding enough.

After soothing her anxious mother, distressed by her crying, Yun Shuangshuang turned and rushed into the house to look at the calendar hanging on the wall to determine the exact year she had been reborn into.

This calendar was bought by Yun Shuangshuang’s grandmother from the market, costing no more than one yuan, made of a thick stack of inferior paper, with a page torn off every day. Looking at the year, month, and day on the page, Yun Shuangshuang finally confirmed that she was reborn to the year when she was seven.

Knowing when she returned, Yun Shuangshuang first thought about how to take her mother away, but she was troubled that, like in her previous life, she still couldn’t take her mother away immediately. The same problem remained — no money, and she was too young.

Even though Yun Shuangshuang was seven years old now, her body was severely malnourished, appearing no bigger than her uncle’s five-year-old cousin. Even with an adult spirit, it was useless. Weak and easily carried away, Yun Shuangshuang couldn’t assure her own safety if she ran away, let alone escape with a mentally unstable Feng Jinyan who was incapable of self-care.