"Piya Piya where are you ???"... Priyansh screamed from the door of my room...Which pulled me out of my thoughts . " I ...I ... I''m here ..Inside the shower " ,I replied my voice shaking from the memories.

    I don''t know how I got the guts to be with him last night...May be because I loved him before ...But not anymore I am not allowed to love that bastard ...I don''t want to face him..."OK after shower come to my room.. .I want to talk to you " ; Priyansh said in anger ....

    " OK" I reply.. I think he was concerned about me last night ... Probably for whole night ... Trying to find where the h*ll I was ....I am so ashamed of myself ....How am I going to face him??? H*ll how am I going to face mom and dad ???

    I step out of shower and get changed .. First thing I have to do is return home.. I don''t know if he will try find me or not .. But I can''t stay here anymore...With that thought I go to Priyansh''s room .. He is really angry but more than that he is concerned about me ..

    " Where were you for the whole night ??? Do you have any idea how concerned I was ??? I was trying to find you in this unknown city like a madman...What the h*ll were you doing ?? What the h*ll were you thinking ???" ... The moment I enter his room he roars in anger ... asking me so many questions at the same time...

    Piya : " sorry .. I am so sorry ... I didn''t mean to do that ... It just happened"

    Priyansh : " What happened Piya ?? Why are you crying ??? Is everything ok?? Are you hurt ??"

    Piya : " Last night I was drunk Priyank ..And didn''t know what was happening... I am really sorry ..I didn''t do it on purpose ...I am really very sorry".. With that my voice started breaking ... I was shaking and sobbing at the same time ...

    Priyansh : " Don''t ... don''t worry Piya everything is fine ... You are alright nothing else matters ...We will find a solution for this ... I am with you ...Don''t cry please"... I think he got what I was happened to me ..

    Piya : " I want to go home Priyansh ... I don''t want to stay here ..."

    Priyansh : " Alright alright ..calm down.. everything is fine.. I''ll book our tickets for today ... we will leave here as soon as possible ... I ordered breakfast lets eat it first then go and get ready.."

    This is the first time I realized my normally childish brother has already grown up... I nod my head and try to calm myself...

    The rest of the trip to home passed by in a blink of a eye .. I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn''t even know when we reached our house... I don''t want mom and dad to know about this ... They will get very concerned ...

    Piya : " Priyansh before going inside the house promise me you won''t tell about this to anyone..."

    Priyansh : " Why Piya ??mom and dad have right to know about this ..."

    Piya : " No .... please no Priyansh I beg you...They both will get very concerned ... Please don''t"

    Priyansh : " Ok if you think so I won''t tell them... I''ll I wasn''t feeling well So we came back ... Is it alright with you"

    Piya : " Thank you .."

    We enter the house and after meeting with mom and dad I go for my room...

    ...Its been a full week to that incident .. I was really very depressed .... Mom asked me a lot of times but I shrugged saying I''m not feeling well...I am looking out side my balcony window but I couldn''t see a single thing ..

    Everything that happened in past few days was roaming in my mind like a whirlwind ...I caught Alok cheating on me on our anniversary.. He broke my heart ... I decided to end my life.. But I got reborn ... I went to Goa... And had a one night stand with the devil... My mind was a big mess with all this thoughts .. I couldn''t think straight ..

    No I can''t go on like this ... I need to have a control on my present and future ... I will have to do something ... I will have to plan my future ... Only then can I change my fate ..... And the first step will be doing some job ...I have to become independent...

    At dinner time ... Everyone is eating in silence .. The chatter and happiness between the family seems to be disturbed .. May be I know the reason ... sigh ...

    "Dad I want to be independent "; I declare breaking the silence ... Everyone stopped their spoons in midair and turned to me with shocked expression ... In the past dad always nagged me to do some job ... He always cared for my future .. But I was a spoiled brat .. I was wanted to be a house-wife .. Like those in the novels ...

    I was wanted my husband to love me ... Have a family a happy family ... But those things only happens in novels .. Not in reality .. Real life is far more cruel than any novel.... I got my peace of mind ... My sudden change in attitude shocked everyone at home ....