CHAPTER 1116: 1194: SPUN A BEAUTIFUL TALE

Dong Huiying asked Hong Fei about her future plans, and she answered without hesitation, that everything is based on loyalty to the General. She put Dong Huiying before herself, not even considering her own matters.

Dong Huiying asked again about her and Luo Yang and Gao Jian, she said if Luo Yang and Gao Jian were willing to marry Hong Fei, would she marry them?

Hong Fei hesitated.

"That’s irresponsible!"

Hong Fei replied to Dong Huiying, "Feelings are one thing, but someone like me doesn’t deserve a family, doesn’t deserve marriage. Unable to manage it well, marrying them would harm them."

Dong Huiying was at a loss for words, "Then why did you drink so much for a whole month before? Shujun and I thought you were like this because Luo Yang and they wouldn’t marry you?"

Hong Fei looked innocent, "I just wanted to forget them."

Dong Huiying’s eyes widened.

Hong Fei said, "I’m not very smart, my life belongs to the General. If I had my own family, a husband, children, I might not be able to care for the General, and that is absolutely unacceptable!" So, even if it means sacrificing her own life, no matter what, for the rest of her life she is willing to face any danger for her General.

Dong Huiying’s eyes twitched hard, "You... are such a scumbag!" Emotionally you’re a scumbag, how is this different from flirting and running away?

Falling for someone, and letting them fall for her, if not with the intention of marrying, it’s complete nonsense!

Hong Fei, well done, you spun a beautiful tale of nonsense!

Dong Huiying pressed her forehead, "I think these two things don’t conflict, are you overthinking it?" No wonder Luo Yang had that look, seemed like she saw through Hong Fei ages ago.

Hong Fei timidly glanced at Dong Huiying, "But, first of all, they’re not willing to marry me, even if they really got married, once they’re family, I must treat them well. They’ve suffered too much already, and I... General, this temporary peace is merely the calm before the storm. I know, one day, I’ll have to follow you back to the battlefield, and at that time, life is worth less than a dog’s, life and death are but ordinary affairs."

"If I die, wouldn’t it hurt them again? And if I’m away from home for years, wouldn’t it be like making them a widower? They can remarry, but the person they marry can’t be me. I’m not confident I can always be there for them, I don’t even know how much longer I can live."

Dong Huiying went silent, speechless.

However, she also kind of understood Hong Fei’s thoughts. She’s utterly loyal to herself, she’s even willing to risk her life for herself. But if she had a husband, there would be ties, and if she died? A widower remarrying requires great courage, and if Hong Fei died on the battlefield, they would become widowers again, and by then, getting remarried would be even harder.

Hong Fei didn’t disregard Luo Yang and Gao Jian, but after deep thought, she decided to sever these feelings. However, if she could forget, if she could let go, she wouldn’t be so despondent, drowning herself in alcohol.

As Dong Huiying thought this, Hong Fei let out a bitter smile, "Moreover... they also don’t fancy me, right? I’ve met their former spouses, I’m a rough person, big and burly, I’m not worthy of them, how could I dare to have such delusions."

Huh??

Is there some sort of misunderstanding again??