CHAPTER 61: CHAPTER 61: PAST [7]

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Step 3.

Stimulate the feeling to "anchor" the belief.

If you just talk and don’t do anything, your brain will rebel. You need to attach faith to strong feelings.

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In other words, Kael needed to hurt himself.

This might be an impossible action for many people.

But for him, it was a different story.

He had come this far, so why stop?

Without hesitation, Kael took out a pair of extremely sharp scissors from his pencil case.

And then...

Shhhkt!

A cold scratch appeared on his arm.

Blood began to flow.

Not too much.

And not too painful compared to what Kael had experienced.

He clenched his teeth.

His eyes were still very determined.

"Continue."

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Step 4.

Easy.

Repeat.

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’...That’s all?’

Kael mused.

Then, he let out a horrified laugh.

"Too easy..."

All he had to do was do it again and again.

But how many times was enough?

"I don’t know."

Therefore, Kael would just do it until he felt it was okay.

"I love pain!"

Tch.

A slight tear escaped his cheek.

A firm poke.

"This feels so good! It’s like taking drugs!"

Shhhkt.

One more time.

Without a moment’s hesitation.

Continue!

"Pain is pleasure!"

Tch!

Repeat.

Repeat!

Repeat!

One more time.

One more time!

One more time!

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Kael couldn’t remember how long he had been stuck in this room, or how long he had been hurting himself.

Maybe it had been a few hours.

Or maybe it had been a few days.

His brain had taken in too much pain to think about anything else.

But one thing was certain.

Kael couldn’t stop.

He had to keep repeating the action.

Kael would only stop when he passed out from exhaustion.

And when he woke up, he would continue to torture himself.

If Kael’s body had too many scratches, he would switch to using his fists.

And if his fists didn’t work either, he would strangle himself.

During this process, Kael had absolutely no rest.

Persistence led to success.

And then...

The first day.

Kael was still screaming like a drowning man.

Day 2.

The screaming had stopped.

This time, he was just gritting his teeth, and carrying a murderous look in his eyes.

Day 3.

Not much progress.

Day 4.

He was able to force himself to smile.

Day 7.

"..."

Completed.

Kael had successfully brainwashed himself.

Now, when wounds appeared on his body, instead of feeling pain, he felt... high.

Being a masochist was great.

"Hehehe..."

Like a drug addict, he chuckled.

With that, two lines of tears continuously flowed down.

However, they were not tears of happiness.

But they were tears of some kind of emotion that he did not know about.

"...You really did it, my darling."

Evelyn said, didn’t know how she should feel about this.

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After school.

The sunset dyed the entire world orange.

All the students had gone home.

Except Kael.

Because he had an experiment.

And those five.

"Follow us."

"..."

He turned to them.

With a lifeless, empty gaze.

Like a dead person.

"Sure."

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The bathroom.

A familiar place.

It could be considered his second home.

The place that had left Kael with the worst memories.

But this time, would things be different?

"So, like always?"

"Yeah."

"Who goes first?"

"You idiot, if it’s like usual, then of course I’ll be the one to hit first!"

One of the five stepped forward and punched Kael hard.

Thump!

He fell to the bathroom floor.

It hurt, it really hurt.

But...

A smile bloomed on his lips.

"I don’t hate it at all."

Thump!

Thud!

Thump!

Thud!

They continued to hit him, one after another, just like usual.

Nonetheless, Kael still didn’t feel any discomfort or pain.

He just felt happy.

— Yes.

— Don’t stop.

"Please keep going..."

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Chrrr... chrrr... chrrr...

The sound of cicadas.

It sounded quite pleasant.

Like a great symphony.

But unfortunately, in this park, there was not a single person to enjoy it.

The villainess could not prove it, but she could feel that her time here was about to end.

She was about to return.

Back to Kael - the person Evelyn loved.

But, at that moment, an unexpected event happened.

Just like that time.

"Hey beautiful sister, who are you?"

Kael, who was sitting next to her, had a face bruised from being beaten too much, spoke up.

The villainess paused, then turned towards the source of the sound.

There, Kael, who should not have been able to see her, was now looking straight at the villainess.

His eyes were filled with curiosity and interest.

"You can see me?"

He tilted his head.

"Why can’t I?"

How strange.

But anyway, Evelyn was about to leave soon.

"Never mind that, have we met somewhere before?"

The villainess pondered.

Then, a brilliant idea came to her.

"If I told you that I was your lover from the future, would you believe me?"

"Oh! That’s great..."

Kael replied, his voice filled with mockery.

"So then, my lover from the future, what kind of person am I to have the honor of becoming the lover of a beauty like you?"

Evelyn’s red lips curled up.

"You are my lightbringer, my everything."

Complete.

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Tired, Evelyn slowly opened her eyes.

’Where am I?’

She looked around, realizing that she was in an area that was only white.

"So you are awake?"

Suddenly, Kael’s warm voice rang out beside her.

"I’ve been waiting for you for quite a while. I thought I had done something wrong. To be honest, I was really worried, because I thought I would never see you again."

The villainess turned to him, smiling slightly.

Her ruby eyes couldn’t hide her exhaustion.

"You really succeeded..."

He immediately let out a smug smile.

"Heh! Of course, I am your darling after all!"

Evelyn sighed.

"Alright, my lover is the best."

She patted his head.

"But... what exactly did you go through? You seemed quite tired, and you woke up much later than I expected."

The villainess paused.

Then her lips curled.

"I had a dream."

Kael raised an eyebrow.

"Oh, a dream? Interesting. What was it about? Do I have the right to know?"

"Of course not, this is my dream."

"Eh..."

He felt disappointed.

Extremely.

Evelyn chuckled elegantly.

She never got tired of seeing Kael’s reactions.

"Come on, don’t be disappointed. I have a present for you."

His eyes lit up immediately.

"Oh! A present!?"

The next moment, soft lips were pressed against Kael’s.

It was Evelyn’s lips.

They smelled so good.

And felt so brilliant.

— Thank you for everything, my lover.

[End of volume 1: Regressor and Transmigrator.]