CHAPTER 77: THE ONLY OPTION IS TO LEAVE

I won’t even imagine waking up to something like this.

The letter was covered in blood when Luca pulled it out of the white bag, which was barely a white bag. I glanced at him, eating for him to read when he turned to look at Ares.

What did that mean?

"Where is he taking the bag?" I whispered, I glanced at him again, waiting for him to speak when Ares took the bag away, and a wave of disgust was over me. "What did the letter say, Luca?" I asked

His eyes were on mine, he knew he couldn’t lie to me and he didn’t want to tell me the truth either, who is it, I didn’t have anyone to lose but him.

"He found Aria." Luca breathed out and my chest tightened.

"What do you mean? We asked her to leave so she would be safe, Patrick is not even meant to come close to her because if he had done his research he would have found out that we didn’t even care that much about her." I explained, I didn’t want to accept what he was going to say.

It didn’t feel right to, it scared me to even utter the words he wanted to speak, it scared me to even think.

"It’s her, in the bag, her parts," Luca stated and I rushed into the bathroom, my throat closing up again and I felt the rush of all the meals I had earlier before I found myself pouring it all out in the bathroom.

Luca held my hair up, he placed his hand around me and he let me up to wash my face.

"She is dead," I whispered against my breath. "Because of me, because I asked her to leave the house," I whispered gene note tears streaming down my cheek.

"Now if there is anyone to blame it’s going to be him, she died because of him and not you, you didn’t do anything, all you did was ask her to leave because you thought it would be a better idea, hell I thought the same too, you thought that it would be better if she didn’t stay because she will not be safe and there is nothing wrong with that, I did the same too but Patrick; he wants a war."

"Then you give him one," I yelled, and more tears spilled out of my eyes, I felt a wave of anger wash over me, I could feel my wolf itching to come out of my body, for days I stopped her but now I didn’t think I could.

All I wanted to do was run and run until I didn’t feel this guilty, until I didn’t feel like it’s because of me everyone is leaving, it’s because of me they are all dying.

I looked away form Luca and I headed out into the garden, Luca rushed from behind, I felt my body start to snap slowly, my eyes filled with more tears as my skin covered in fur, a fur that I have always been ashamed off and each bone snapped and shaped into her until I got all of it, it felt perfect when I stood on my paws and when I turned around, I saw Luca.

He had changed too.

I started to run and he was behind me, I never ran like this, I could hear Aria voice in my head, telling me how I messed up and how she didn’t want to leave yet I forced her, telling me how I am not loyal to anyone not even my mom because after I left she became worse, because it’s all my fault I was not there for mom despite knowing the fact that my father didn’t treat her well.

There was a louder voice telling me that it has nothing to do with me, and she died because of Patrick; he is the monster that ah come into my life but then how many more monster said be here, Luca has a lot of enemies and non of them are willing to back down, they will always come for me, tend will always come for our family and what happens when we create the most beautiful family, will I still be this scared.

Will we be able to protect them, I ran and ran.

Soon I felt my paws hurting and I did stop, I didn’t even realise we had left the house and now I am in the middle of nowhere with Luca beside me, he made me feel better, I stood by a tree and I felt myself calming down, Luca didn’t speak; he only waited for me to, he wanted me to calm down.

And I did, I cried all I could, I growled as loud as I could when I found myself turning back into my normal state.

Bare and naked in the middle of the woods, Luca did the same, without fear in the world. He turned into a human and he sat on the ground beside me.

"The dream, it was a man. He was coming on to me and he succeeded. While you were sleeping, I tried so hard to wake you up to tell you that he is hurting me and you didn’t wake up, It scared me that without you I can’t even defend myself, I can’t bring myself to fight anyone." I breathed out.

"That’s what you think, but without you. I could not fight anyone even if I wanted to, you give me strength and I know you are a fighter, you know how to defend yourself but you are just scared to hurt anyone." Luca spoke.

"She died because of me and I am here doing nothing, is this how it’s always going to be, are we always going to lose someone, till we lose someone we care about, I don’t want that. The thought that scares me and I am worried that one day we would not be able to recover from the trauma despite having each other." I whispered and he didn’t speak.

"Olivia- no what happens if we have a baby, a boy or a daughter, what happens when the house is under attack and your wolves are trying to make sure we are safe, we can keep them locked all we want, but for how long, are they ever going to have a shot a normal life, are they ever going to go to school and have friends or is it going to be sad, they are never going to have anyone, just themselves, would they be allowed to visit their friends, what happens if they are in school and they get attacked, someone takes him away, what are we going to do then, are you not tried of this repeated cycle, there is peace sometimes but for how long, and most times, it feels like the war is never going to come to an end.." I explained.

More tears streamed down my cheek, I didn’t cry for Aria, I cried for myself, I cried because one day it could be someone I care about, because one day it could be someone I know, someone I could not live without.

"What if it’s you Luca or me, what if I am next, no matter how hard you try to protect me, what if they come for me, or when you have your back turned, they come for you, what are we going to do then, how are we going to recover from lossing each other, what do you think is going to happen?." I whispered and he placed his hand on mine.

"I never had to worry about anyone or anything until I met you, I mean this life, being the leader of a pack, I used to wish my father was not like that, I used to wish my father was normal and I used to wish that my father didn’t even have the power we had," Luca explained.

"You know we can have that."

"I can’t abandon the pack, I made a promise, I can’t let them fend for themselves while someone like my uncle waits to be the leader to punish all of them."

"When we have a son and he is like you, just wants to be normal, will you be like your father and force him to take responsibility for what you have created, would you have wanted that, you won’t right because even I would not want something like that to happen" I explained. "Tell me, Luca, will you be like your father and tell him this is his birthright and he has to do it, or will you want him to lose all his dreams like you did with yours?" I asked.

"I won’t, I never want to be like the man that never listens to me never listened to my words, never cared if I am doing anything to not, never cared if I would lose everything, and never cared that the trauma would do to me, Olivia, I will not be like him."

"The only way to do that is to leave," I whispered and his hand got tighter on mine.