CHAPTER 301: HE WANTED TO BE NORMAL

I stared at Seo-Jun and then reached for his hand. I held it and he looked up at me.

"What do you want?" I asked him but he didn’t respond. He simply stared at me and then laughed before looking away.

This jerk... I’m asking out of concern here.

Maybe we can do something about it.

"What I want?"

"I mean, something you regret right now." He probably regrets not meeting me sooner before he spiraled out of control but that’s not what I’m asking.

"Something I regret." He mumbled and then turned his away. "Probably that I didn’t make that bitch suffer enough before she died." He asked with an eerie look in his eyes.

Okay, not that either. We can’t bring her back to life and kill her all over anyway.

"Jo-Pil, I have a lot of regrets." He said. "But I don’t want to think of that now. What I want to think about is if I can get what I want right now."

"A-and," my voice broke. "What is it you want?"

He looked at me softly and then stroked my hair. Can’t help, just speak in a straight line and not give me these heart-pulsing feelings?

"I want a friend." He said and suddenly pinned me down on the bed, kneeling on the bed and keeping me trapped in between his legs. "Will you be my friend?"

Um, a friend. Yeah, I can do that but... You don’t pin your friend to the bed, you maniac.

"We can’t be normal friends," I said to him. "But I wish to be your friend."

"And why can’t we be normal friends?"

"Um, for one thing, you usually suck my dick and have plans to have sex with me. That’s not the kind of thought you have about someone who’s ’just’ your friend." I pointed out and he actually looked pretty clueless. I sighed. "If you want a friend, someone you can actually chill out with, then you should make you with Min-Cheol."

"That brat? He won’t even listen to anything I say."

"I know. But I’m going to help you two. I... I don’t like that you’re enemies right now." I said. We were all living in the mansion and thought that Min-Cheol didn’t always show his hostility towards Seo-Jun, it was still there.

"I’ll agree to whatever you have in mind." He said. "But you’ll have to take the lead."

"Fine," I said, but then he wasn’t getting off.

Was there something else he needed?

Come to think of it, he did say he had something he wanted to try.

Something lighter.

While I can’t exactly pinpoint what that ’something lighter is’, I have a feeling it has something to do with sex.

"Jo-Pil, do you know the one thing I always wanted?" He asked and I stared into his eyes. He stroked my hair gently with a belt gaze in his eyes. What was he going to say next? I had no idea. "Normalcy." He said and got no reaction from me.

It surprised me, to the point I forgot how to react. But then, not so much. After hearing what he had to say, I was able to understand him better.

He wanted to be normal.

"And do you know that you’re a key?" He asked. "The moment I realized I could do anything for you, even starve myself of sex just because I didn’t want the thought of it to upset you, I knew you were the key to me achieving that dream."

Hm, so what he needed was something to drive a hard conviction through his chest. And that something just happened to be me.

A motivation to do things he usually couldn’t do.

"But isn’t this dangerous?" I suddenly asked. "If you’ve been abstaining so much, won’t you go crazy from the rush of lust flowing through you?"

"Yes, you’re right." He said.

’Then why are you going to such lengths?’

"But then, I gave myself something to look up to." He said and that sounded very suspicious. I raised an eyebrow and asked,

"What’s that?"

He smirked, leaned in, and whispered in my ear.

"I told myself that this was for the greater good, and my reward would come when I finally got to have sex with you." He said and my face flushed.

This... This guy...

I turned my face away.

Ah, then wasn’t this more dangerous? For me?

If he was going to hold back so much only to release that frustration on the day he gets to have sex with me then... Didn’t that mean I was going to suffer?

I probably wouldn’t be able to sleep the whole night, my back, waist, and pelvic bone would all suffer. Ah, and even worse if he tries a weird kink during that time.

I shivered just thinking about it.

This... Was a bad idea.

Seeing me shiver underneath him, he laughed.

"What’s the matter? You scared?" He asked and I did not hesitate to nod my head.

Who wouldn’t be scared knowing the kind of sex maniac he was?

"But I promise not to hurt you." Say that to the sex demon, you demon.

He wouldn’t even know when he’d lose control due to the smell of my Pheromones.

Wait, if he decides to do it during my heat then wouldn’t it be alright? I mean, I’d be a sex craving mess at that time, willing to embrace just any Alpha with a cool body, hoping to quench the heat inside me.

I almost won’t be able to feel it. But...

I already placed the order. He won’t have his round until last.

(Oh? What do we have here? A juicy secret)

"So, right now, will you help me?" He asked. "You want me to cum, right? You want me to release at least one, so I don’t run crazy, so you’ll help me, right?"

Why was he suddenly making it seem like I had every obligation to help him? Well, I did. But... Sigh. What was on his mind?

"But I know my body very well and I know I won’t be able to cum with just rubbing dicks."

"I told you, I don’t like pain," I repeated, just in case it somehow slipped his mind.

"Ah, that’s why I said we were going to do something lighter." He said and then got down from the bed.

On the drawer, there seemed to be ’things’ that I suspected from the start would be in this room.

He brought them out and I narrowed my eyes.

"I thought you said you never brought anyone in here."