CHAPTER 313: BUT WHERE WAS SEO-JUN?

My heart was thumping. What kind of confession could Seo-Jun possibly want to make at a time like this?

I hope he wasn’t planning to confess to me.

He did say this was the place a lot of people used for proposals. So, he... He wouldn’t, right?

My heart felt unsteady and I bit my bottom lip.

"What... What is it?"

I couldn’t just dismiss it simply because he said he had a confession and all the signs pointed to a confession of love.

It could be something else. Like I said, Seo-Jun was a very unpredictable character who could spring up something that had nothing to do with this situation.

"Do you remember the time I said I was thankful for so many things?"

(Check Chapter 249 to refresh your memory)

"I... I do." I said. It was during our first date when we were in front of the aquarium. How could I forget?

"Well, I meant it. I was so thankful that I could share you with the others. It’s weird, right? But that’s how I felt and I still feel the same now."

"What?"

Did I hear that right?

"Do you think I’m weird?"

"No, I mean, yes, but... Can you please explain what you mean so I don’t misunderstand?" I asked.

"And what exactly do you think you can misunderstand from my statement?" He asked, and I tilted my eyebrows.

"Well, a lot, for starters."

He stared at my face and then laughed.

"Alright, I’ll explain." He said. "But I’ll only say my piece so you figure out the rest."

I nodded.

If he could at least be clear with the core then I would probably be able to decipher the meaning of his words.

He leaned closer, his breath itching on my ear and causing them to go red as he whispered,

"You’re so pretty, Jo-Pil. So much that I fear if I had you all to myself from the start, I would’ve ended up breaking you without having my eyes opened to how much of a big help you could be to my life." He simply explained, leaned back, and smiled. "Do you get it now?"

I stood there, breath caught and heart beating steady. Geez, this man. He was always beyond normal.

And yet... My cheeks wouldn’t stop burning from his words.

Seo-Jun said he’d have to figure the rest by himself but what was there to figure out? He already said it all.

Truly, if I had started at a rocky start in that mansion and had no one to rely on, no one to watch my back, and Seo-Jun came into the picture, nothing holding him back from being the literal beast he was, then his eyes wouldn’t have been opened.

Well, they would’ve been opened but it would’ve already been too late by then. He would’ve already broken me and watched me whither away in despair while the others tried to force their newly found love onto me and expect me to reciprocate it.

Hm, did I ever tell you about Seo-Jun at the end of the novel?

I did mention that in the hospital, after I gave birth to the fourth child, the fourth heir of my fourth master, the other three who thought they would finally be able to make it right and start over with me now that my role had been accomplished were in the ward with me.

But I walked towards the window, much to their despair, blood rolling down my legs from my torn behind and the crushing emptiness inside me... They were all there, the three of them.

But where was Seo-Jun?

Where was the man whom I had birthed a child for at last?

Yes, the last child belonged to Seo-Jun and while it should’ve been his priority to come take the child as soon as it saw the day of light, it was nowhere near that hospital.

At that time, I was so broken in despair and didn’t even care. He might’ve been frolicking with his side pieces at a time like this but what does it matter to me?

All I cared about was cursing them and finally ending my terrible life. The plans they had... I would thwart them.

At that time, I already had four children, and some may say it was selfish of me to just die away and leave the four kids to those monsters, but if you were in my shoes, would you be able to carry on?

After having every part of your body broken, forced into sex you never wanted, forced to breed, forced to live a life of a breeding machine... Would you really be able to continue just because you wanted to make sure your kids weren’t harmed by these monsters?

Heck, you couldn’t even protect yourself from the monsters in the first place, so how are you going to protect those precious kids?

I felt powerless, helpless and at some point, I resented the children. I wasn’t even allowed to take care of them past their sucking stage so what was I? Was I a mother?

I couldn’t be good to them even though I wanted to. My position wouldn’t allow it.

And even if those kids did grow up with those monsters, I bet you that at least they wouldn’t treat them the way they treated me.

The best they could do was neglect the children, you know. And that was way better than abusing them.

Now, back to what I was saying.

In that moment where all three masters were finally smitten by me and felt like they could no longer live without me... Just where was my fourth master?

Where was Seo-Jun?

Even though I did not get to realize this firsthand, the story I read after growing up in the other world mentioned it. It mentioned how Seo-Jun had locked himself away.

No one felt pity for a character like him, obviously. Not after what he did to me, Jo-Pil. Not after how he broke me, my soul, my mind, and my spirit in his fun game of pleasure.

But given that we had already noticed that the pattern of his abuse was becoming odd towards the end of the novel, we already knew what was going on.

We already knew Seo-Jun was regretting it.