I truly hoped that the conversation would have ended there only. ;

    Damon looked at me. It was for a second but I think his eyes were red with anger. And I assure you I am not speaking just metaphorically. The eyeballs they looked like orbs of ruby. ;

    He averted his gaze. ;

    Room became awfully silent. My brother, my savior of the eve, for the first time in history he did something good. ;

    Let''s toast, he said cheerfully. ;

    But what should we toast to?, said my parents in unison. ;

    Jace: Damon has finally settled down in a relationship. Let''s toast to that. ;

    Mrs. Petrova: Oh hoho... Who is the lucky girl? Show me her picture. ;

    Damon passed the phone to me. Although I saw het earlier but I couldn''t remember her face, so I looked at the picture before giving it away. ;

    Holy shit, my mind screamed. ;

    I showed the picture to my mom. ;

    Mom: Isn''t this? ;

    Alexa: Yupp.. You''re right. It is her. ;

    Damon and Jace faces were in confusion now. ;

    Mom laughed and said, Oh don''t worry it is nothing serious. This is Donna isn''t it? ;

    They nodded. ;

    Mom: She was the Alexa''s Best friend, before high-school. Her house is also not very far from here. ;

    Damon: Wooww.. This is an amazing surprise. ;

    Things went back to normal and everyone had a cheery mood at the end. ;

    It was already half past eleven. So Damon and Jace left after the dinner. ;

    I went back to bed, put on my headphones and went to sleep. It was kind of a weird reaction of my consciousness. Whenever I felt sad, I tend to sleep more. I guess it was that way, so that I could escape from all the emotional torture and save my soul from being torn. ;

    Now, to think of it. I didn''t actually experience many emotions. ;

    Once, younger brother of my friend got unconscious in school. Everyone got worried sick. But I was standing there, observing the situation and not feeling any kind of emotion. It was not that I hated them or something. I was neither feeling empathy, concern nor happiness like a sadist. ;

    I was just blank. ;

    I wonder, when God made me, did he actually forgot to put some emotions in me. ;

    I normally feel happiness or anger. Except these two I don''t think I have any other emotion. ;

    Today I felt sad too but now come to think of it, I am not even feeling sad anymore. ;

    When I close my eyes and peep into my soul, I see nothing. Everything is just blank. ;

    Sometimes I wish I could see what''s it''s like to be the blood flowing in my veins. I wonder the insides of me are same as others. ;

    I dream of a world where I am just a no one. Staying behind in shadows, observing everything and everyone. ;

    Everyone thinks, Everything is either black or white, but they don''t know there''s so much hiding in the greys. This is their weakness. ;

    If only I could melt into the shadows, dive deep not just in the shallows. If only I could rule without revealing my true face. If only... ;